I didn't know it until I was older, but I am a perfectionist. Early on, I thought perhaps it was a good quality to have.
Perfection is unattainable. Nothing is ever as I wish it was; it's never good enough. The pie might have had a more symmetrical lattice crust on top and on and on and on...
Being a very curious person, (I believe I told you I used to read encyclopedias for fun), I have leaped into everything that interested me, headfirst, without fear or abandon (every mother's nightmare wild child).
It is how I learned.
This could go on and be too lengthy, so I'll cut to the chase.
On my creative side, my oil painting has always been a thorn in my side. Never have been satisfied with my work. I have always used the old master's glaze technique for it was what interested me (and was the only one I knew how to do).
Just like a carpenter's tools or a surgeon's instruments, an artist's brushes too have specific uses. You must know which brush to use.
Over the years I have come to love modern/abstract art. Picasso is a personal favorite and a more recent artist, George Condo. My list is long.
I've always wanted to do some modern paintings, but didn't know how. I bought handfuls of palette knives and don't have a clue as to the use of each one, and it will be a steep learning curve.
So, I went and bought the largest tubes of oil paint I could find, a regular sized canvas and went to town on it. I had a ball. I learned something too. You need a good underpainting/drawing to start with. Oh, I do love shortcuts, but, well, you know... another lesson.
I'll show you a tiny bit of the painting - a heavy impasto and just trying to get total canvas coverage like with the old technique. It has been a lot of fun and I'll keep trying. My goal is to do some very large canvases. I told you. Dive right in there head first.
Did you notice the hand model? It will be holding the title of the painting.