Just thinking. Out with the old - in with the new.
I usually make new years' resolutions. I am about 50% with keeping them, so I figure I should go ahead and give it a try.
This year my resolution is Get Her Done.
As I get older, I am feeling the lack of time left to get things done. It is rather distressing, but also a challenge. Oh, and I usually get a head start before the beginning of the new year. Maybe superstition, perhaps just nothing more than an early start.
Had a few talks with a family member. Put off for far too long. In my later years, I try not to give advice or maybe it is just to mind my own business; avoid conflict at all costs. That is how I roll. When it affects family, it is especially hard, but I finally did it. It did not go as I had hoped. Does it ever? I may have given up on wishes and dreams coming true, but not hope. Can't change the past, but the future, yes. That is what I ended the discussion with. My life's work has been my family. My kids don't know what not having a family is like. They also think they know it all - that parents lived in another time. Experience mentioned is taken as an insult. Well, how do you know how it feels to be old when you've never been old? How does it feel to be a parent when you've never been one? I can only hope I planted a seed.
On another front, there is a passage in the Christian bible, in the book of Matthew I believe, "all is vanity and that is like chasing the wind". I was brought up in the church, but am no longer religious, at the least don't believe in a mono-theist religion. I do remember some of the readings though.
I haven't been very vain in later years. Hate wearing makeup and jewelry; just not a very girly girl. Why should we have to wear make-up when men don't? Mostly. I can't stand to put on all the products either. Scrubbing, toning, on an on.
Well, guess what? I've suddenly begun to see things heading south and wrinkles. I just turned another year older and it struck me like a thunderbolt. So, I am researching all the new procedures, short of surgery. I cannot believe all the things they are doing now. BTW, I do draw the line at vaginal rejuvenation and hand fillers.
Just thinking...
